Saturday, February 07, 2009

48 hours and still counting...

There is something incredibly exhilarating about being so completely exhausted and tired that my brain is kind of disconnected with the rest of me! At times I can go on for a couple of days without sleep, but there definitely has to be strong enough motivation for me to miss out on sleep. It can be an extracurricular activity that I am doing for myself or the short but sweet time spent with friends doing crazy things like playing cards late into the night and then going to bed only after having seen the moon set, the sun rise and with a hot cup of coffee warming me or gazing at the stars as they seem to move across the dark night sky and even at times an experiment which just cannot be planned in a more sane manner. So such late nights or rather early mornings and unending sagas of sleep deprivation would normally be expected to make a person cranky, prone to mood swings and basically depressed. In my case I seem to notice that I do pass through the above-mentioned phases but then I reach that point beyond which nothing seems to impinge; its like all my inhibitions are lowered, I say stuff and am a lot more outspoken than normal. And the best part is I am aware that I am behaving differently but well, I couldn't care less! It makes me wonder if perhaps this is what happens when one is just slightly, pleasantly drunk. Someday, I intend to find out :D !!!
Anyway, as I was saying, it is a great feeling to test my limits and to see how long and how far I can stretch myself before collapsing entirely. Most call me mad, think I am not careful enough. But the fact of the matter is, at times it is the best choice I can make. While I am still young enough to be able to handle this, while I am still resilient enough is the very time to try out all this madness. Later I might be too old, too prim and proper, too 'grown-up' to even consider going days without sleep or getting so tired that if I just stop in the middle of a sentence, I could fall asleep! 
So I say, live exactly the way you wish to while you still have the freedom to do so. Do all the crazy wild stuff you might have dreamed about, all the supposedly irresponsible things you have always wanted to do and all the "living it king-size", while you are still young and able enough. You never know what tomorrow holds...so live entirely for today...and enjoy it to the fullest...and never regret it as long as each one of your decisions are wholeheartedly yours!

11 comments:

Suneel Madhekar said...

Challenging oneself, and exceeding ones own expectations is always thrilling. But to keep the game fair, I think, the phrase "collapsing entirely" needs precise definition! Well, jokes apart, the present is the only moment within our reach, to whatever extent. So, life ought to be lived, one moment at-a-time, relishing every bit of it. If there is something worth staying awake for 48 or 96 hours at-a-stretch, you better do it now rather than later! At the same time, the lesser you sleep, the lesser you dream. And what is life, without dreams!

vindy said...

More than being just well thought out and well placed, I would say, it is well implemented :) Yes, you do have endless stamina with regards to night-outs..keep enjoying! I liked Suneel's comment as well, especially what he says about dreams :)

pushkaraj said...

"Infinite Energy" is how i would desribe you after seeing you closely when you were going thru this crazy experiment of yours!

Mukta said...

@suneel - dreams are indeed a blessing and i do believe that if not for the rest, it is in order to dream that one must sleep. i really liked your point!
And by "collapsing entirely" i mean going completely, wholeheartedly nuts and being unable to take in or process absolutely anything!

@vinay and pushkaraj - thanks guys! its often times coz of the company that i feel refreshed all over again!

maneesh said...

Insane stuff... :)

I still haven't found a reason good enough to give up sleeping!

May I recommend the book, 'No one here gets out alive' - a biography of Jim Morrison, frontman of The Doors, and also suggest that you take particular note of the title with reference to our Institute?!!

Just kidding, stay wild!!

shilpa said...

Thats interesting...An out of body experiment ,so to speak!!!

Haha..I definitely am grouchy on 0 hrs of sleep!

Wanderer said...

All that you feel when you "reach that point beyond which nothing seems to impinge" is very similar to getting on a high! It is a terrific discovery , you can actually simulate all those feelings which most people acheive after they comsume a few pegs of alcohol!
Jokes apart, I fully agree with your opinion that one must try new things when he actally has the freedom to do so! And with experience you generally get the knack to realise that there is a " method to the madness !"

Mukta said...

hey Vikram!
Great to hear from you :)
Method to Madness sounds interesting. Perhaps you could tell me more about your method :)
Mukta

Wanderer said...

Surely, I would love to discuss it with you.

Beashtu said...

The thought of not being able to do something you've always wanted to do is really scary! I've seen lots of people (damn, that includes me too) who think up a lot of fun, crazy stuff to do but never actually manage to go ahead and do them, mostly because they are too lazy to start doing it. One should just overcome that initial sluggishness and he/she will be amazed at how much fun life can really be!

Mukta said...

@Beashtu - I am a wholehearted supporter of doing all that one's heart wishes to. No dreams are too wild to be brushed aside if only one wants to really chase em!
And laziness! Don't talk to me abt tht! It is the bane of my life... but I actually enjoy the entire procrastination experience even if I might crib about it :)