There's a sad sort of clanging from the clock in the hall...
Inspite of the fact that I am actually at a particularly happy time in my life, I cannot help but have these moments of intense loneliness. They land upon me without warning and nothing I do seems to shake them off. I cannot figure them out. Maybe it is just moodiness, a passing phase, a cloud hovering for the tiniest moment and then moving along ahead. It does not help that in this particular down mood I have the urge to read the darkest stories, sit through the most depressing movies and yet again cut myself away from the warmth and laughter that a friend's company can offer me.
Having always been an independent soul, it cannot be that it is the 'being far away from home and hearth' feeling that brings on these low spirits. Work wise too, I am sure I am not at one of the worse phases and there is so much to look forward to in life that I ought to be sparkling with joy all the time. These moods cannot be banished like magic, you have to literally wallow in them, savour them almost and then let them pass of their own accord. Once they do, then you can be sure that they shall not come visiting for a long time ahead. Yet this mood has been intensifying all day and tonight it is such that I can only write it away. And so I have done... hopefully!
Do you guys also have these unexplained ups and downs? How do you tackle it? I am hoping you will write in with all your creative solutions... mebbe i can try some of em next time :)